Monday, March 10, 2014
I was on fire
and you used me
to light your cigarette
Dulldrops (via moon-blood)
It’s just hard because I look for reasons to stay alive on a minute to minute basis, and when one of those reasons is gone. I’m left in a state of terror and emptiness
I’m so mad I woke up today. Last night I felt everything was in daze. I was so sure I was done.
But no I just fell asleep and had nightmares and woke up with tears down my face
There’s a constant fucking brick on my chest
I feel like cutting my hair made me lose any chance I could have ever had at being pretty.
I was already repulsive and now I’m just even more hopeless
Sunday, March 9, 2014
look at this stuff
isn’t it neat
wouldn’t you think my collection’s complete
Wouldn’t you think I’m the girl
The girl who has
Look at this trove
How many wonders can one cavern hold?
Looking around here you think
Sure, she’s got
I’ve got gadgets and gizmos a plenty
I’ve got whozits and whatzits galore
you want thing-a-ma-bobs? I’ve got 20
But who cares
No big deal
I want more….
THIS IS WHY I LOVE THIS FANDOM
Uuh… it’s hard to explain, it’s a burden that just appears out of nowhere and fucks you up for days. Ignoring it is not easy. It takes over you and even tends to distort your perception of reality turning it into a living nightmare. It’s awful and terrifying.